Words have so much power
I wish I could tell my younger self to stay focused. To not listen to criticism. The whisper of lies, and the deceit of the enemy, because it robbed me of my peace and joy for many years
And yet, recently, God revealed to me that, again, a lie had been received and had become my truth…
You’d think I’d know better, and yet, here I am, shocked at being sideswiped in a seemingly harmless way
Six months ago, I unknowingly stopped believing a God-given dream.
So much so that I stopped writing in my diary. Innocently (or so I thought) – I had decided to prioritise my morning routine, and therefore, for the next season, I thought the diary could go on the ”backburner” to allow me more time to breathe, to reflect, and to restore my brokenness of feeling rejected. I didn’t want to write about the pain, and the loss I felt. I didn’t want to see it in black and white
I know I am a daughter. Chosen. Restored. Healed. Loved…
Yet, I felt my book wasn’t good enough to be published. It seems ridiculous now, but I believed it. Instead of pushing through that negative thought, I accepted it, it comforted me, because I seemed to be at a dead end, and it made sense. It wasn’t that the path I was on was wrong. Just the outcome I had thought of, needed a different interpretation
Yesterday was surreal. Yesterday I signed a contract for my book to be published (release date: October 2019)
Then it dawned on me…
My diary had allowed me to process. To hear His voice and to reaffirm His truth into my soul each morning. The lie had stopped that revelation occurring. For six months, I have robbed myself of intimacy that only that time can know. So, I ripped that lie out, and I let go of the regret of not pushing through because something so innocent can stop us believing for what is to come.
Friend, ask God if there are lies we are believing, and be open about the revelation that comes, because with or without our prayers, God’s plan will unfold, but how much sweeter would the testimony have been, if I had rejected that unGodly truth that I had let in