I am a strong advocate that if I am still breathing, then God still has a plan and purpose for me and over the last few years, I have been “stirred” to fulfil all that God created me to be.
Previously, I spent so many years worrying or procrastinating about life. I didn’t think I could achieve what God was asking me to do. Not because I didn’t trust in Him but life just seemed too “busy”. I mean…there was bills to pay and I had to think of my Husband and Daughter!
At the start of 2017, God challenged me to write a “want list”. At the time I was unsure why, and Kieren (my Husband) thought it was amusing (considering there was no extra finances) but God said to “write what I would love to achieve by the end of the year”. This ranged from a new ironing board (I know – it’s sad) to cars being repaired, a weekend away with Kieren and to even to have enough money to visit Family in the UK after 4 years. I wrote eighteen things on a scrap bit of paper and stuck it on the fridge.
Then time went by and life continued. School notices, car bills, pictures that Sarai had drawn – all got stuck in front of my list but one day God reminded me of it. I decided to start praying for these things because I used to spend nights worrying about “stuff”.
With reference to money, this is where we need to learn to trust God. Jesus invites us to live in a World where our heavenly Father provides for us. This doesn’t mean that we don’t have to work but we certainly do not need to worry.
Looking back, when I have been worrying about finances…about food being on the table or clothes in the drawers – it’s a sign of insecurity because if we put God and His kingdom first, then everything else follows.
I decided that rather than the busyness of life continuing – I wanted to pursue what God was asking of me – my purpose. I nervously stepped out. I’m not saying that it was easy and to start off with – the vulnerability was hard but I realised that God had given me the grace to achieve so much more than I had ever imagined. He told me to “dream bigger than I ever had before”.
Months went by and I started highlighting my list when those things I wanted – happened. To date – there are 13/18 highlighted.
Why do I tell you this…
I spent so much time worrying about the things that I could not control, instead of stepping out in faith and doing what God wanted. When I did what God was asking of me – He blessed us with the things that we needed…and the additional things that were on my “want list”.
Life will continue, whether you worry or not. The only difference is – do you want to get to the end of your life and have fulfilled everything that God created you for? If it’s a yes – don’t be afraid.
God has this.
He has you.
He knows what you need.