I used to think that all Christians were “perfect” and that they would see right through me if I stepped into the church
Then one day, I thought to myself, what did I have to lose? I mean, my life was falling apart at the seams!
Yet, the voice in my head would joke that I would probably set alight, from God’s judgement, the moment I entered the building, because of who I was – and then I met Jesus. The same voice told me that I was not good enough to write a book – so I did. It then told me that the book would never be published – and now it has.
My point is, that I have realised, that the very thing that we could have been created to do, is where we find the most resistance, and therefore, that voice that screams in our ears to not take that God step – is a liar
If I listened to that voice telling me not to step foot in that church, my life would probably look very different now
The judgement that I thought I was going to receive, was actually love
The wrath of God I was waiting for, was actually grace
There have been many typos in my story, and I expect many more to come. I’m not the worlds most eloquent writer, or perfect in my punctuation and spelling, but I have realised that God is the publishing house of my story. He has taken my raw manuscript of brokenness, and turn it into something beautiful
Friends, we can try and blot out the past with mind-numbing methods, but the truth is, everything generally will rise to the surface at some point and become a mess on our manuscript.
Or, we can give our book to God, and allow Him to blot out the smudges and produce something that we never thought possible, but rather than point out our mistakes, God uses the mess on the pages, and turns them into the message of our lives
Stop listening to the voice that tells you that you can’t, or won’t, or condemns your very existence. Give it all to God, and watch what happens when you start to write your next chapter, with Him
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28