Ever since I was a little girl, I dreamt of having children. I wanted my prince and loads of children around me, but at 15-years-old, I realised that my body wasn’t built the way it was designed to be, and by 17-years-old, the Doctors told me that I would not be able to have children. I was advised that a hysterectomy was the way forward, and prolonging that, was delaying the inevitable
Fast forward nine miserable years, and I had made bad life choices – some had damaged my body more than before.
But, at 26-years-old, I had just found God and realised that He could help me. I believed for my miracle. I even demanded it, after all, it was the least I deserved after everything I had experienced up until then
Who knows that we serve a gracious God?
We received our miracle baby, and I knew with everything in me that she was a gift from God. Yet, my divine blessing came at a cost in the natural.
Pregnancy was not kind, and birth was a horrible experience. What’s worse, is that I felt cheated by God, because this baby was supposed to be the start of “my” large family, and yet, just over a year later, I had to have a hysterectomy.
Sometimes we push our way through to our miracle, but just like the Israelites that had just witnessed the parting of the Red Sea, they soon realised that the land of milk and honey was not directly on the opposite shore. Although God made a way, we have to learn to trust God’s timing, and that comes by faith, and walking in obedience
Friends, I want to encourage you that sometimes our desires in the natural, stop the supernatural blessings.
I understand that God can do “all things,” but I have realised that God’s way is always the best.
Sometimes, we will never know “why.” Sometimes we have to let go of dreams altogether. Yet, when we commit everything to God and let go of the paths we want – to choose the ones prepared for us since the beginning of time – we will realise that God will help us beyond what we had ever imagined
We will always know what we want, but God knows what we ultimately need